When will it be over? UGH

Have you ever felt like you're failing in college?

My failure is chemistry, it’s confusing and I just feel like an idiot in this class. I know I should've taken 090 chemistry and it was my mistake. I'm taking 111 and am completely lost, I feel so dumb to be getting horrible grades on my tests and labs. I’ve even asked the lecture instructor for help. My lab instructor is clueless and strict. It’s her first time teaching and she doesn't know what she’s doing. There is rarely an explanation so I'm feeling completely lost and left out because everyone else in a class seems to understand what's going on.

I received my test back today and was upset with the score because I thought I did really well. When she handed it to me I got the “can I please see you after class”. She didn’t understand why did so poorly and told me to go to tutoring, which I’ve been doing! I just don't understand word problems and that’s all that’s on a test. No fill in the blanks. Just giving me an equation I can solve it, give me a word problem and heck I’m lost. It doesn't make sense to me. Now I'm thinking I won’t pass this class. That would mean paying to take it all over again next semester. I wish it were easy, I study before every test. We are now covering models and I understand it because there is no equation/conversion involved! Why can’t I just get it? When will I ever use chemistry? I needed to rant big time!!

Thanks for listening!

Cassie

Memories in The Closet

Those of you who have been reading my blog know I lost both my parents to cancer. While I am cleaning the house to move to Michigan State, I've been coming across my parent’s things. In my mom's movie and reading room there is an old, wooden, cigar box a titled little Dan O'Brien I thought it was amusing the price sticker “six cents” and it's a fairly large.

There is a little book entitled Junior Senior prom and two tassels from 1977 and 1972. I also found a Girl Scout stash with different badges. I knew my mom was in girl scouts but I’ve never seen this before. Also I found a memory book that has a few signatures and autographs from friends including her brothers Randy and Chris and sister Pat. Inside a folder is her fourth grade report card, and I’m surprised to see she wasn’t as smart as I thought, kidding. I can’t figure this one out but there is a little blue and white cap labeled JDC. For some reason she also kept two silver dollars in there as well.[slideshow]

 

I’ve come across many things that were there and I find it so interesting. I know I’m going to come across more, as the house gets emptier.

A few months ago I also came across a Dear Abby letter. It looks like it’s from the 70s. I found it in a mushroom wallet that was squished back in the sandwich bag drawer. When I first read the article it brought me to tears. I now keep it in my wallet so I can look at it and remember.

 

At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped. When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. And don't call this my deathbed. Let it be called the bed of life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives. Give my sight to the man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face, or love in the eyes of a woman. Give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain. Give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play. Give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week. Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk. If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses, and all prejudice against my fellow man. Give my sins to the devil. Give my soul to God. If, by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you. If you do all I have asked, I will live forever.

 

I'm Back!

Hello everyone I am back and ready to do some more blogging! It's been a while but I'm really excited to be back and to start up again. I've been super busy this summer getting ready for college. I'll hopefully blog each week, but this time it's going to be a little different. Instead of post about my week,  now I'll be blogging and updating you on just the good stuff. I have a lot of plans this years be sure to subscribe! In November Alex and I are going to Faeriecon in Maryland; in December the Christmas party up North with my family; and then in January I am visiting one of my really good friends from Chicago, Kelley. Kelley also has a wonderful blog that I've attached in the links portion so definitely check it out. Lastly in February Michael and I are going on our first cruise together on the Disney Magic to the Eastern Caribbean!

You might wonder what exactly brought me back to blogging. The answer is actually a person, Kelly Farrell. Kelly is an amazing person and I met her on Second Life. Kelly's blog is a project for herself and her explanation is  “I, Kelly. A project involving me transforming from someone who made a complete shambles of the first half of her life to a successful, phenomenal woman.” Her blog inspires people do get back up and take control of their lives. She had me getting back to curves and working out. She's actually getting married in June to Marc who is also from second life (I hope you don’t mind me sharing! ;) ). I’m heading down to help plan for the wedding and hang out with her in January. I'm really happy for the two of them! http://thekelleyproject.blogspot.com/

Boy have I been busy! I went back  in August for my last year at Washtenaw community college where I'm majoring in zoology. In June I’m transferring to Michigan State University. I’ve started a search for an apartment and I'm excited to move. I’ll also be the assistant director for the Saline musical again this year. For 2010 they  are putting on “West side story”. I'm excited to be involved for the last year before I move up to Michigan State!

Long post, but way over due!!

Cassie